9 Months Pregnant

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Transitions tend to be tough. It doesn’t matter what the transition is, it might be a very good change, but it still always feels difficult. There is something odd about leaving what you know and stepping into something new.

This month will be an interesting one. I call it the “nine months pregnant” month. I’ve had enough children now to know this feeling well. You are exhausted, tired from carrying an extra load every day, and know that your life is about to drastically change in the next month. No matter how much you’d like to prepare and prep for the big change, you really can’t know what it’s going to be like until you are in it. Everything will be different and it will never go back to the way it was. Thankfully, you know the tough aspects of the pregnancy will be gone, but understand that different joys and challenges will come with the new baby.

This is our big month. We start it the same as every other month: Justin at his job and Chosen Gen packed into every free moment while the kids are asleep. But, by the end of the month, this current normal stops and Justin moves to Chosen Gen full-time. While we can’t wait to be done with this exhausting, busy season and get to know what life will be like with this new Chosen Gen “baby”, we really don’t have any idea what to expect. The hard thing is that we realize there will be no way of knowing until we are in it. There will be new challenges, low moments, and tons to learn. Yet, there will also be great joys and many exciting firsts as we set out on this new adventure together as a family. We are so ready to do this! But, we can’t make this month go faster, and in many ways we don’t want to. We will enjoy the season we are in for another month, thanking God for the steadiness and comfort of what we know. Then, we move forward into the unknown, into something new, into a life where God will have to lead and direct us, walk with us, and at times carry us or we won’t make it.

Changes can be tough, but without change we never mature and grow. God is always molding, working and transforming each one of us. Don’t resist it. Let him do the work he needs to do. Trust him in the process, in the waiting, in the changing of seasons. Let’s cling to the joy of knowing that the one guiding our life is our all-knowing, heavenly Father, our all-powerful God, our all-loving Savior, Jesus. We are in good hands!

“Forget the former things;
    do not dwell on the past.
See, I am doing a new thing!
    Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
    and streams in the wasteland.
The wild animals honor me,
    the jackals and the owls,
because I provide water in the wilderness
    and streams in the wasteland,
to give drink to my people, my chosen,
    the people I formed for myself
    that they may proclaim my praise.
- Isaiah 43:18-21

Keep running, friends!